I have discovered a newly found freedom in expression. It is called, not caring for feedback of any kind. This alone is capable of releasing some profoundly positive energy waves and carry you from periods of pain to such of the brightest light. They won’t last for long, no. You will most probably relapse into your insecure, deep and dark judgmental thoughts. But they won’t disappear either. They will be passing you through like those newly discovered gravitational waves and the power will be so strong that you won’t even be able to explain where it came from. Well, it came from the inside. You just never look there.
Frida Kahlo was always feeling this internal pain (mostly due to the external one) and she was just able to look inside, take it out and find the best way to express it. Colours, flowers and love to conquer all that was dark and painful. And there was a lot.
Stop searching for outer aid. There is none. Its you. Alone. And you can make it. We all can.
“I never paint dreams or nightmares, I paint my own reality.”